Thursday, January 6, 2011

That time again

January is not my favorite month. Mostly because I have a lot of travel for business in this month and it makes everything feel rushed and hectic and I don't like leaving my family. But also because there's an anniversary in the middle of the month that is especially hard to deal with. Two years ago I was in Las Vegas for business when I got that phone call that Monty was not doing well. And two days later I came home to find him existing on pain medication and mushy food with his tumors compromising his normal bodily functions.

The next morning, I said goodbye and the vet euthanized my sweet boy.

I miss him so much.

My trip to Vegas is once again fast approaching and this year, there is no horse of my own waiting for me to love through the pain of my remembrance.

But there is a tiny hope.

My horsey blog friend "On The Bit" gave me a lead to a horse she found out of the blue. I have contacted the owner and this lovely horse has my heart in knots. Everything about her seems tailor made to a perfect fit for me. She's not too far away. She has no vices. She has a loving owner and has been properly cared for and is up to date on all her vet work. She's nicely broke to ride and looks like a comfortable horse to work with. She's in my budget and she's the right size.

I want to see her NOW. But I can't because of this business trip. There is another person scheduled to look at the horse next week and because of my trip I can't get there first. I've seen pictures and video and have this feeling in my heart that she is the one. It will kill me if I come back and find she's been sold and I lost my chance because I had to be away.

Please, send a wish my way that this horse is still available when I get back. I just want my luck to change.


Rachel said...

wishes sent. if its meant to be, it will be. I truly believe that (and i'm not even a religious person!).

lookielou said...

Wishes also sent. I really hope that she is the one for you. We all need our equine friends in our lifes

Marissa said...

Fingers and toes crossed! I trust OTB, she's picky and wouldn't send you one that didn't have potential to be the right one, but you never know until you meet them. And in response to your comment on my blog, you'd be a wonderful loving home for any horse, including Julie if the timing were a little better for both of you. Hang in there during this tough month -- we'll be here for you!

Annette said...

keeping my fingers crossed-


Greetings from Southern California :-)

I came across your blog while I was blog surfing and added myself to follow you. You are more than welcome to visit The Old Geezer Blog and become a follower if you want to.

God Bless You, ~Ron

Justaplainsam said...

fingers crossed!

Jean said...

Big, gigantic wish made here too.

I'll be thinking of you....hugs.

OnTheBit said...

I am really praying for a snow day next week!
And if this isn't the right horse you know I will always keep my eyes and ears open for you.

Anonymous said...

Do you have a good friend or trainer who would go look at the horse for you while you are in Vegas?

Lisa said...


I've just started to read your blog and I really feel for you - I have been in the same situation, but have hope! I picked up my new mare a couple of months ago and she is perfect - just what I wanted. Don't rush, even though it feels like there is a giant empty hole you need to fill right now. Your horse is out there waiting for you. Just have faith in that. :)